Apparently, because lately I am not sure of anything, there is a moment in all our lives when we begin to ask ourselves things we normally only ask others. Questions that have to do with the meaning of our lives. I use the word “meaning” as direction, more than anything. That is, nothing very nebulous, just “where am I going?” and occasionally “who am I?”
It’s understood that we ask ourselves these things not because we already know, and apparently – again – perhaps we do not know, otherwise we would not feel “confused” or “lost” or “depressed” or “insecure” or any of the multiple expressions that exist to express such lack of direction.
Based on what I have been observing in myself, I have the impression that when I look for answers outside myself, that is when I move away from my true meaning or direction. Conversely, when I resist the tendency to seek answers and ways of doing things outside me, I come closer to myself. This is very awkward at first, almost hesitant, but then it gets more comfortable, more secure and also more humble. If I continue to resist that tendency, I begin to discover that I have various answers inside me; in other words, I begin to discover my true motives, intentions, and direction.
I realize then that I have to affirm all this instead of ignoring it, forgetting it or degrading it, even though it isn’t so sophisticated or brilliant or extraordinary, or any of the more or less absurd adjectives with which we have been taught to describe what exists outside of us.
To be “out of control” is to be outside of oneself, and it is really worth the effort to learn to be with oneself and to value and refine what we have inside us, even if it is “poor.” It is possible that “poverty of spirit” is really bliss, and that in this poverty the best of us exists; this translates into something many people have observed for centuries. Poor people are the most generous… Not having or possessing is actually a virtue that has not been highly valued, especially when that virtue has to do with internal possessions. Failure in general quickly brings us closer to this understanding… So we must not avoid failure, but rather must receive it with great willingness, because it is a gift from the divinity within us.
These images / drawings are from a collection called “Weekly Reflection”. Most of the time the text is related to the photo or the drawing and is a “poetic” interpretation of the image. All the images and drawings are made by Rafael Edwards, all the texts are created by Fernando Aránguiz and all the English translations by Trudi Richards.
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