The process of changing – or changing something – from one form into another is generically called “conversion.” In any kind of conversion, whether we’re speaking in scientific, economic, mundane, or spiritual terms, what is generally considered the important thing is the final objective, not the process of transformation that leads up to that objective. In other words, the process of conversion takes a back seat. I am more interested in the process of conversion than in the final product, because that way I can understand how conversion operates in me, how that transformation unfolds.
“Here it tells how the non-meaning of life is converted into meaning and plenitude.” That is the first sentence in the book The Inner Look by Silo. It explains that what is being discussed here is the process of conversion, and that this is what the book is about. Of course when I read the book for the first time, I barely grasped that first sentence, and since then, as I’ve continued to study and come to new comprehensions over the years, I’ve delved more deeply into the extraordinary details of this writing.
At first everything appeared to me as static, because that was how I understood and saw the inner and outer world. From non-meaning to meaning, from one place to another, from one relationship to another relationship, everything of course aimed at “obtaining” that meaning, regardless of the fact that my objective began with its opposite, which was the point of origin or birthplace of this possibility. To put it more simply, there is no way to arrive at meaning without starting with non-meaning. But what is more important is the process of conversion from one into the other.
It is in this conversion process, as we study the principles of valid action for inner liberation, that we begin to discover the meaning to be found in failure, as well as the correct attitude, the suspicion of meaning, and the Force within. “I do not speak to you of liberty. I speak to you of liberation, of movement, of process,” explains the introduction to the Principles. And it is important to be clear about this, because it is precisely in my daily behavior that I will have to keep transforming my responses and my actions in the world. If my actions in the world are not coherent, no meaning can possibly appear.
But with the effort to think, feel and act in one direction, my actions begin to become more unitive, and this I feel is where the path toward meaning begins, in a diligent work to generate a new way of existing. It is important to understand that we work with what we have, with the nonmeaning we come from, which is the raw material that keeps being transformed, keeps being converted in an ascending direction.
All conversions have a point of origin, a process and a purpose, but it is in the process of “carefully meditating in humble search” that the meaning is revealed internally, and that is the process of conversion to which I aspire.
November 2, 2020